To hold her one last time. Is that too much to ask? I spent
hours with Eden holding her and stroking my lips against her soft hair, back
and forth- it felt like silk. I will never forget that softness. I can
sometimes feel it if I close my eyes and remember.
We’ve blogged and talked about losing Eden but we don’t
always talk out loud about the heartache and the pain. When you lose a child
part of your heart is lost. Not necessarily all of it but it literally feels
like part of your heart is gone. That pain is always there underlying with everything
you do- the happy times, the sad times and the scary times. Sure we experience
pure joy now with Reagan but that twinge of pain in that space where our heart
was once complete is still there.
To those of you who still talk about Eden, mention that you
heard her song Beautiful or support Eden’s Garden; you have no idea how
much this means to us. Our hearts are filled with love and happiness when
others talk about her. So thank you! I mentioned this last year but we truly hold
this day March 30th as sacred. We disconnect and focus on Eden and God’s
grace and for giving us strength to get us through our continuing journey.
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